This is like...ten times worse than when maii brother had lice! My little sister might go DEAF!!! She's only 2!!! Maii parents just rushed her to the hospital. OMG!!! If she does become deaf, I'm going to cancel maii ear-piercing appointment tomorrow. NO WAII I'M JUST GOING TO GET MAII EARS PIERCED IF MAII SISTER TURNS OUT DEAF!!! She was crying SO hard too!!! She's onliee 2!!! omg...omg...omg....I need to calm down...

Is it a sin for letting your parents down? Is it a sin to seek what you want even if you are denied it? If it is, then I've sinned too much.

What's my purpose here...? Am I here just 'cause I am? Everything I do, I fail at. Am I good for anything?

If you lacked something...and you knew what it was...what would you do? I know what I lack, what I lack is denied, but even so, I still feel a waii to get through...

Looking back on maii memories, I was alwaiiz confused baii other's actions. I could never guess what they meant...I've been so unstable...

Who am I? I know who I am by name...but who AM I? Not baii name but by what's inside. I feel like...I'm nothing. Just here to sit and watch as the world passes by.

If you know me, I'm usually happy. I have everything I need, everything I could want. But sometimes...those things just dun fulfill maii happiness...something is empty that I want to be full. I lack freedom...it feels like I can't be who I want to be...but just a shadow of someone else. Am I afraid of showing who I am? Am I afraid of being rejected? But....how can I saii this when I dun know who I am? I want to be who I am...but I can't do that not knowing who I am. I alwaiiz want something else to make me happie...but it's never possible. Everytime...it just happens. I want fun, freedom, and to love and be loved back. I love maii family....but sometimes it feels like I dun get it back. When you send a gift, you usually get something back. But it feels like I barely do.

This is just a stage...when I learn to be happie with who I am...but what makes me happie...?

Maybe it's you...the one that put light into maii life when all I saw was darkness...or maiibe a close friend that cares...you two know who you are...and I love the both of you for who you are and for trying to cheer me up whenever I'm down. And maybe that's enough for me...

Ha ha...if I restart again, I'm giving ya guys permission to shoot me!!! lOL...so bored T_T.... ..:: Random ::.. Midou's been ignoring me lately...I dun know what's going on, but it'd be nice if I knew why he was ignoring me... ..:: Family ::.. We're just kicking back and relaxing todaii...we might go see Meet the Fockers!!! Ha ha...that movie sounds so dang funnie...xDD Baii the waii the impossible has happened...I'm bored baii maii computer!!! =OOO ..:: School ::.. I'm enjoying maii winter break so school's on H O L D.

..:: AIMS ::.. I know school's on hold, but I dropped baii AIMS 'cause they have this Winter Break class thingie...when I saii class I mean them with their eyes stuck to the TV screen playing Halo.

Brandon: NOO!!! CURTIS I TOLD YOU NOT TO KILL ME!!!
Curtis: What? I didn't kill you!
Brandon: ...Oh...nevermind. It was default.
Me: Err...which one's which? o_O

..:: Comp. Life ::.. Bored of RO...I've done everything but tried out the marriage system...ha ha...Poor Shin and Felix ..:: Friends ::.. I'm a loner remember...? lOL j/m Lianne's not home...T_T Everyone else is...just bored as I am...lOL Has anyone read Joshua's profile? Lianne's got a cold, Andiee's back from Taiwan!!! --yay!!!-- maii cousin's back in Kentuckiee miss her sooo much!!!

..:: Other ::.. It's official!!! I'm getting maii ears pierced next Fridaii, and taking a break from AIMS so I can heal up...if it hurts like hell...no one tell me. I'm serious...

Mom: It'll hurt a lot
Babysitter: Yes it will. It gets all swollen and...
Me: YOU GUYS AREN'T HELPING